Big Step...

Today was a small victory...

An afternoon nap...

Sleeping in his bed...

And mommy...

With empty arms...

Checking on him...

Every two minutes...

Jacobs 1st Soccer Year

We were so afraid of how Jake was going to react...



Kids taking his ball...

Unable to get it back...

Watching others score...

And not himself...



But we watch him play...

A smile on his face...

And Jake in those eyes!

Soccer Season

The season has started - and the cheers will soon begin...

Three boys playing this year...and though some may find me crazy...I love it...



Watching them...

Run along the field...

Red cheeks...

Determination in their eyes...


Looking back when Olivier would spend more time watching the planes fly overhead...

Then chasing after the ball...

The change over the years..

Is amazing...

Today playing Division 1...

I couldn't be prouder...


So yes...

We spend much of our time driving to soccer games...

Sitting on the sideline cheering them on...

We often have to separate ourselves...

Ben heading with one...

Me with the others...

Only one soccer free day in the week...



But we do it for them...

And we couldn't be happier...

Little Peanut

2 months
9 pounds 1 ounce
20 inches

Our Gift From Heaven

He glows...

And when he smiles...

And when he laughs...

I see them...

I feel them...

A Year Has Passed...

A year has passed...
Since we said goodbye...

That day...
Another part of me died...
And my heart broke...
Once again...

To my little girl Méliange...

The moment you started growing inside me...

Was the moment I fell in love...

You became my world...my little girl...

Today I can no longer hold you...but I know you are still there...
I feel you all around me...
In the sun on my face...
The wind in my hair...
In the butterfly fluttering by...
And deep in your brothers eyes...
I can see you...

And I know you are smiling...

you are laughing...

you are dancing...
I whisper into the wind...

Je t'aime ma princesse

Je t'aimerais toujours...

Never will I forget...

Holding her in my arms...

Her perfect fingers...that should have grasped my hand...

Ten tiny toes...that should have wiggled...

Little nails...that I should have painted one day...

A beautiful mouth...that should have been taking its first breath...
Instead she lay so still...

I did not get to rock her to sleep...

Did not get to see her look at me...

Did not get to feel her hand grasp my finger...

Did not see her first smile...

Or hear her first laugh...

No excitement to see her crawl...

No pigtails...

No first steps...

But through my tears...I still smile...

Because I was blessed...

To have carried her for five months...

To have felt her move inside me...

To have held her...

To be her mom...

Missing you every day...

Loving you forever...

A year has passed...

A whole year...

Since we said goodbye...

Méliange Godmer
May 21st, 2010

My Reason for Being...