Two Days

The big ultrasound

Just 2 days away

Seems like we have been waiting forever

And now

The day has almost arrived



I find myself overwhelmed with excitement

And very very scared



I am scared for my heart

Knowing this is our last chance

For a little girl

Knowing that this chapter of my life

Will be closed

Knowing I might have to let go

Of a dream



But I also know

That seeing a beautiful baby boy

Will melt my heart

And I no longer will be able to imagine my life

Without him




I am somehow unable to hear

What my heart is telling me

I think I have been feeling girl

But I cannot be sure.

Is it maybe because

I want to hear it so badly

That I am trying to convince myself

That maybe

Just maybe

My dream will come true...

But then

This loud voice of reason

Brings me make to earth

Screaming at me

Its a boy.

Is this because

Deep down

I know its a boy...

Or is this a way of protecting my heart from disapointment...

I just don't know

Every sign has been telling me boy

I should have no doubt

And yet

I still feel this pull

And I can't let go

That maybe

Just maybe





And so I wonder

How will our family portrait look

4 amazing boys with a little princess to protect

Or 5 boys, who will be best friends forever

In 2 days

I will know the ending

To this beautiful chapter



And I am excited

Excited and scared

Movement

What a feeling

What an amazing feeling

Little butterfly flutters

Across my belly

That have now

Turned into kicks

I could spend hours

Watching the ripples

Across my belly

Feeling you

Pushing my hand

What a feeling

October...

October is beautiful...

The trees glow red, orange and gold in the warmth of the automn sun...

The sight of hundreds of geese flocking the lakeside is breathtaking...

Week-ends are spent outside, soaking up the final days of warm sunlight...

Houses are decorated with ghosts and witches...And beautifully carved pumpkins sit on the steps..

The excitement of Halloween lurks in the eys of every child...

The joy and love of Thanksgiving warms the cool and crisp evenings...

October is beautiful...



But in my heart...

October brings tears...

October brings sadness...

October brings memories...

Of what could have been...

October was the month Gabriell and Méliange were to join our family...

Those days never came...



And yet...

Here we are...

Years later...

And once again...

Expecting to bring home...

An October baby...



For a third time...

I find myself...

Telling the boys...

Baby will be here around Halloween...

And I hear my heart whispering...

Please...Please...



So as we head down this road once again...

We can only hope that...

Third time's a charm...

That we finally bring home...

Our October baby...

And that October...

Turns beautiful...

Once again...

I Won't Give Up On You

I heard this song after finding at we were expecting once again...

It brought tears to my eyes...

And has become "Our Song"

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up



The Big Annoucement

Our Little Surprise Ending...

I figure the time has come...

Time to announce you to the world...

Our little surprise...

A new little miracle...

A new little rainbow baby...



We have know for months...

But fear - that overwhelming fear of loosing onece again...

Has kept you a secret...



But I have been praying...

I have been hoping...

I have been holding on to you...



Seeing you for the first time...

Brought tears to my eyes...

And looking at you...

I some how knew you would be ok...



165...what a glorious number....

What a beautiful sound...

Your little heart beating within me...



And now here you are...

Here we are...

Together...

Still holding on...

20 weeks...

And I smile...

8 weeks

12 weeks 5 days

12 weeks 5 day

12 weeks 5 days

17 weeks

20 weeks

20 weeks

Summer Treat

White Chocolate Rasberry Cheesecake

Another School Year Has Come And Gone

Sleepy Boy

Soccer Season Once Again

Bubble Fun

A summer day and some bubbles

My Guys

Me And My Guy

Baby Crocs

Big Boy Riley

13 and 14 months

Mother's Day 2012

Je t'aime Maman

3 little words that melt my heart and brings tears to my eyes

Rafael Carrier

Welcome to the world precious rainbow baby

Rafael Carrier

April 28th, 2012



May 21st Once Again

Hard to believe that 2 years have come and gone...

It seems like only yesterday - the news - you were gone...

Holding you in my hands...

Tears rolling down my face...

My broken heart...

But those lonely and empty hours have turned into days...

Days into weeks...

Weeks into months...

Months into 2 years...

And though the world has kept turning...

Life kept moving...

I have not forgotten...

My heart could never forget...

I will miss you forever...

Every day of forever...


Méliange Godmer
May 21st, 2010

Week-end In Ottawa

Our mini Ottawa Vacation

Vikings AAA 2001

This year Olivier made the Vikings AAA team.

6 weeks of intense hockey - hardly a day off - but so worth it

He loved it...and so did we :)