Our Gift From Heaven

He glows...

And when he smiles...

And when he laughs...

I see them...

I feel them...

A Year Has Passed...

A year has passed...
Since we said goodbye...

That day...
Another part of me died...
And my heart broke...
Once again...

To my little girl Méliange...

The moment you started growing inside me...

Was the moment I fell in love...

You became my world...my little girl...

Today I can no longer hold you...but I know you are still there...
I feel you all around me...
In the sun on my face...
The wind in my hair...
In the butterfly fluttering by...
And deep in your brothers eyes...
I can see you...

And I know you are smiling...

you are laughing...

you are dancing...
I whisper into the wind...

Je t'aime ma princesse

Je t'aimerais toujours...

Never will I forget...

Holding her in my arms...

Her perfect fingers...that should have grasped my hand...

Ten tiny toes...that should have wiggled...

Little nails...that I should have painted one day...

A beautiful mouth...that should have been taking its first breath...
Instead she lay so still...

I did not get to rock her to sleep...

Did not get to see her look at me...

Did not get to feel her hand grasp my finger...

Did not see her first smile...

Or hear her first laugh...

No excitement to see her crawl...

No pigtails...

No first steps...

But through my tears...I still smile...

Because I was blessed...

To have carried her for five months...

To have felt her move inside me...

To have held her...

To be her mom...

Missing you every day...

Loving you forever...

A year has passed...

A whole year...

Since we said goodbye...

Méliange Godmer
May 21st, 2010

My Reason for Being...

Happy 2 Months Riley

May 20th, 2011

Beautiful Boy

Bittersweet...

Watching him look at us for the first time...

Watching his first smile...

That first day you hear his little voice...

That little laugh in his sleep...

Holding his toy in his hand...

And reaching out to grasp my finger...



Every new step...

Every first...

Is amazing...

So exciting...



And yet...

Every new step...

Is bittersweet...

Knowing I am seeing these firsts...

For the very last time...

First Smiles

Joshua

Happy Mothers Day

May 8th 2011

Inside the water of your womb...
I drank life itself...

You sustained me then...giving me life...
You gave me love...even before laying your eyes on me....

My heartbeat grew stronger each day...deep within you...

Within the womb...our bond began...
And will continue to grow throughout life...

You rocked me, you held me, you were my world...

The scent of a baby is sweeter than the most beautiful flowers...
The sight more breathtaking than a rainbow...or the moon in its full ripeness...

And to the eyes and the ears of a child....
No place is sweeter or safer than a mothers arms...

Into my life came laughter...and unconditionel love...

Together we have laughed...we have cried...we have agreed...we have argued...
But we found peace...
And together we grew...

As I watched myself flower into motherhood....
I see you pearing back at me in the mirror...
And I am so grateful to find you there...
Deep within my eyes...

You are my friend...my touch stone...my example...
You are my mom...

-Unknown

Happy Mothers Day...

Jacob

A Touch of Red...

Wondering...will we have a redhead in the family...

A Moment in Time...

Lost...

When you feel lost,

pause and look closely around you...

Somewhere...somehow...

and angel will be waiting

to guide you home...



Riley is 6 weeks...

A few pictures of Riley....already 6 weeks....where has time gone....

Easter...

April 24th 2011

Funny how busy we become...how I was sure I had included my Easter post already....So here it is...a bit late...

John 3:16

 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life


Happy Easter







A Different Mothers Day...

Sunday May 1st, 2011

International Babylost Mothers Day

Today is a day that not many people know of...

A day no one wants to celebrate...

Celebrating it means you have hurt, you have cried,you have lost...

Today, I am not a mom of four...

Today, I am a mom of seven...

Psalm 139:13-16

“For You formed my inward parts;
You knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonferful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in Your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.”

Sad Day...

April 30th, 2011

Today another baby was born with angel wings...

My sister lost her little boy...

My heart is hurting...

Tears running down my face...

Shaking...

The hurt, the sadness, the emptiness...still so fresh in my mind...

So fresh in my heart...

I know the pain...

I have felt it...

I have lived it...

Why...

Why must she also now know it....

Now feel it...

I am heartbroken...

For her, for her husband, for her girls...

Its not fair...

A new angel mama among us...

A new angel to watch over us...

Forever loved...

Bébé Garçon Carrier