Butterfly Visits: September 2011

Thursday, September 22, 2011

I see you changing before my eyes...

Everyday...something new...

Every new step...amazes me...

I could sit...watching you for hours...

I want to take it all in...

Every smile...Every laugh...Every sound...Every move...

I want to remember...

The way your eyes sparkle when we walk in the room...

The way you scream and wave your arms when you are excited...

The way you rub your eyes when you are tired...

The way you fall asleep holding your blanket...

The look in your eyes when you discover something new...

But I am afraid I will forget...forget the details...

Will I remember how tiny your hand is in mine...

Will I remember how we all gather around you trying to make you laugh...

Will I remember your giggles...your coos...

But even as you grow...as you change...

Never could I forget...

How you changed our world...

And made us smile once again...

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Happy 6 Months Riley

Simply can't imagine our family without you...Happy 6 months baby boy...

Monday, September 19, 2011

My loves

Apple Picking

A beautiful fall day...

The sun was shining...

Apple picking with my men...

An amazing morning...

I will never forget...

DJ Riley

Little Rebel With Monkey Feet

Stuck In A Moment...

My boys are my life...

They are my reason...

They are my everything...

And yet...

Somedays...

Its still so hard...

Memories of her...

In my arms...

The longing to hold her...To rock her...To kiss her good-night...

My heart still hurts...

How do I move forward...

Without forgetting her...

How do I let go...

Without letting go of her...

How do I go on...

Without her...

I feel stuck...

Stuck in that moment...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

September 13th 2006 - 2011

Yesterday - September 13th - marked the 5 year anniversary of the Dawson College shooting....We all fell silent hearing the news - watching the images of students running for their lives - how could such horror happen so close to home...I remember standing in front of my TV and falling to my knees knowing my sister was there...Never will I forget that sick feeling as we tried to reach her...We will not forget...

Monday, September 12, 2011

September 12th

"Quand nos enfants vont partir, qu'on les aura vu grandir. Quand ce sera leur tour de choisir, leur tour de bâtir. Quand nos têtes seront blanches, qu'on aura de l'expérience. Quand plus personne va nous attendre, qui restera plus rien qu'à s'éprendre. On va s'aimer encore, au travers des doutes, des travers de la route et de plus en plus fort On va s'aimer encore..." - VV.

20 years ago today, I held his hand for the 1st time, felt shy and nervous and excited as I looked into his eyes...and before he turned to leave, he held my face in his hands and kissed me...13 years ago today, I married him... Tu es mon meilleur ami, mon prince charmant, mon amant, mon amour...Je t'aime Ben ~ Always & Forever...

Remembering 9-11

"If we learn nothing else from this tragedy, we learn that life is short and there is no time for hate'' - Sandy Dahl, wife of flight 93 pilot. I am not an American...and yet, 10 years later, memories of that day, still so clear in my mind....10 years later, the images still make me shiver....10 years later, we remember those who died...those who had to move on without a loved one...those who ran forward to help a stranger... We Will Never Forget....