A Year Has Passed...

A year has passed...
Since we said goodbye...

That day...
Another part of me died...
And my heart broke...
Once again...

To my little girl Méliange...

The moment you started growing inside me...

Was the moment I fell in love...

You became my world...my little girl...

Today I can no longer hold you...but I know you are still there...
I feel you all around me...
In the sun on my face...
The wind in my hair...
In the butterfly fluttering by...
And deep in your brothers eyes...
I can see you...

And I know you are smiling...

you are laughing...

you are dancing...
I whisper into the wind...

Je t'aime ma princesse

Je t'aimerais toujours...

Never will I forget...

Holding her in my arms...

Her perfect fingers...that should have grasped my hand...

Ten tiny toes...that should have wiggled...

Little nails...that I should have painted one day...

A beautiful mouth...that should have been taking its first breath...
Instead she lay so still...

I did not get to rock her to sleep...

Did not get to see her look at me...

Did not get to feel her hand grasp my finger...

Did not see her first smile...

Or hear her first laugh...

No excitement to see her crawl...

No pigtails...

No first steps...

But through my tears...I still smile...

Because I was blessed...

To have carried her for five months...

To have felt her move inside me...

To have held her...

To be her mom...

Missing you every day...

Loving you forever...

A year has passed...

A whole year...

Since we said goodbye...

Méliange Godmer
May 21st, 2010