March 21st, 2011

March 21st, 2011, what a day that will be...the day we finally hold our miracle boy...

This has been a long journey for us...we have been waiting for this little guy for so long...its almost hard to believe that it is coming to an end...and this time, a happy end....

The end is now so close...or should I say, the beginning....except for six weeks, I have been pregnant for the past 14 months....a much longer journey then we could ever have imagined...and yet the thought of no longer being pregnant, brings tears to my eyes....

I love being pregnant, watching me belly change, knowing a little life is silently growing inside me...hearing the heart beat for the first time - takes your breathe away....feeling this miracle moving inside you...spending hours watching the movements - the waves across my belly- a little foot, the head...this part of our journey will be over...I will miss it so much...

But what lies ahead...finally meeting our little one...holding him...looking into his eyes....pressing my lips to his little head...

There will be no words for that moment...

What a day that will be...

Unbelievable...

Hockey Mom

February 2011



Olivier



I get up early and spend most evenings and week-ends sitting in a cold arena...

I sit at the edge of my seat, my stomach in knots, as I watch my two oldest sons step onto the ice...

I scream, I clap, I blow my horn...

I encourage them and give them thumbs up when our eyes meet...

We aren't home much and spend hours driving from town to town, from arena to arena...

I am a hockey mom...

And as I watch my boys, my eyes filled with tears, my heart full of pride...


I know, that I wouldn't change it for the world...



Joshua



Happy Day

February 2011

Today I can't stop smiling...my heart is happy.

We had our big ultrasound to check on our little man...and he is doing great...I still can't get used to hearing those words....

We were able to see his little nose, his mouth, those little hands and tiny feet...there he was...perfect in every way...weighing 4 1/2 pounds - which after holding my daughter, sounds huge...

I wonder if I could be any happier....

34 weeks...hard to believe we have made it so far together...only 3 weeks to go...and I will finally be holding you...what a day that will be...

Unbelievable

February 2011

We have officially chosen our sons name...we have had to add a few middle names to make all members of the family happy...but we have agreed that it will be perfect...

We have passed so many milestones...holding our breathe along the way...we have overcome many scares, where the thought of loosing him hung over our heads and made our hearts stop...and yet, here we are...still holding on...still together...

As a friend so well put it, each of my boys has been rejoiced over and cried over at their births...each a milestone...a marker of complete happiness in my life...but this...THIS...just unbelievable...

To CD or Not no CD that is the Question...

2011

I never thought I would spend so much time thinking about diapers...and not just any diapers...cloth diapers...

I never thought I would be one of those moms considering putting my baby in cloth diapers...and yet, here I am...

I have learned all there is to know about CD's...pockets, AIO's, prefolds, hybrids....how to prep, how to wash, how to dry...the ups, the downs, the ins and outs...and I have become excited by the very thought...

Funny, how I never thought I would get so excited by a diaper...

But sometimes I wonder, is it really the practicality, the money, the concern for our environment that is driving me towards the world of cloth diapers...or simply, the cuteness factor....hmmmm...

Moving Forward...

2011

Though the very thought still frightens us...and whether our emotions are ready or not...we have decided, that the time has come to move forward...to start preparing for this new little one...

To be so excited about buying little pyjamas, tiny socks, a stuffed bear for his room...and yet so scared that I will find myself putting them back into a box...never worn...

But it is time...time to put our fears aside...time to hold onto hope...time to have faith...time to believe...time to move forward...



His little bear Marley...
because this new little miracle has come to
Light up our Darkness...



My Rock...

2011

He has been by my side through it all...

He was my rock when my world crumbled around me...

Your support, your strength, your encouragements, your tears, your smile, your patience, your hugs, your words, your silence, your love...all of this, all of it, has helped me more than you could possibly imagine...

My best friend...my husband...Benoit

You gave me the strength to get up every morning and take care of the boys...

You continued to support me, even when the world around us had already seemed to have forgotten...

You are a wonderful husband...the best dad to our boys...

Thank you for believing in angels with me...

You mean the world to me...

I will love you forever...every day of forever...