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Thursday, November 7, 2013

Letting Go

Last month was October 15th...

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day...

This year...

I did not light a candle...

This year...

I did not write a blog...

But...

This year...

I still remembered...

I will never forget...

Life goes on...

It grabs you and pulls you forward...

Spinning all around you...

Wrapped up in your day to day...

Slowly...

I move forward...

Further and further away...

From them...

How to let go...

Without feeling...

As though I've let go of them...

How to move forward...

Without feeling...

Further and further away...

But

Every year...

Takes me further and further away...

A memory...

Becoming more and more distant...

How to be able to let go...

And yet hold on...

At the same time...

I have struggled with this...

Moving on...

Without letting go...

Without forgetting...

But I have come to realize...

That though I have moved on...

It is not without them...

For..

They are still here...

With us...

Every day...

They are in the sun that warms my face...

The breeze that blows my hair...

They are the butterfly landing on my hand...

The sparkle in our little ones eyes...

But

Some days

I still wish...

That I could close my eyes...

And hold them...

Forgive me for moving forward...

Life moves around me...

But my heart will never let go...

And I will never forget...

Never forget...

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